Thursday, March 18, 2010


Why there are no news

To make it short I can say that I am rather spent these days. There are several reasons- Nr. 1 being that I made a decision to get back into shape before my wedding which is coming up in July. Therefore I started the bodyforlife-program two months ago and this means that I am in the gym every other day and do cardio the others. This happens in the time, I normaly spend on the hobby- (8:30 pm to 10:00) so it is the mainreason for the little progress.

On the other side, there are the things that just kill my motivation- namely I have bought a house. Since this will most likely be the only house I will have in my life on this wonderfull planet (Europeans do it like this), I will make it exactly what I want. This means it has to be renovated. and the process of getting all the prices in takes it's time. I am speaking of new floors, ripping out walls, installing new kitchen, bathroom,... So I spend a lot of time in "home improvement shops" on weekends and in discussions afterwords because everyone seems to know exactly how to do it. Don't get me wrong- I love a good insight but it seems that every professional does it differently and insists, that his way is the only one leading to success. So I am left back scratching my head and having a hard time making decissions.

My fiance is a great support these days but we are getting tired of all the organizing so tensions go up from time to time- especially when the little ones are giving us some nuts to crack concerning their upbringing. I don't want them to suffer under my current stress and that's why I try to give them more time with their dad on weekends. So no painting again.

The upcoming weedding also demands for a lot of preparations. We have found our dream location (a beatifull litle castle in our area) but still have not decided if it will take place there- mainly because of the costs conected to it. I really got to take care, that this year doesn't kill my finances and this troubles me.

This way I have lost about a month of painting by now- which wouldn't be a bad thing if it weren't for my comissions. I have not finished my Vostroyan job by now and my client is getting a little cutty. So what do I do? I will get myself together and get back into it. One thing will be discipline and the other one movivation.

I have decided to paint up one model (picure of Azrael shows my inspiration- not my painting)which I wanted to do for a long time for myself and get me on the painting table that way. I sure hope this will give me the kick to get back into it again.

Whish me luck!

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  1. Col. Corbane said... March 18, 2010 at 10:41 AM

    Never apologise for making your kids life better mate. We'll still be here when life calms down.

    Good luck with the life projects!

  2. Brent said... March 18, 2010 at 4:09 PM

    ...he's right.

    We will.

    That's a bit sad.

    Joking aside, Corbane said it best, and you only get this time in your life once.

    Grats sir - Brent

  3. Cannonfodder said... March 19, 2010 at 8:58 AM

    Thank you for the kind words. Of course my children will always come first- then my fiance then myself, then my job and then the hobby (forgot to put firends in between there somewhere) ^^

  4. sovietspace said... March 19, 2010 at 10:54 AM

    I admire your priorities mate :) All too often I find that painting or arranging games/trips to the pub and other fun things get in the way of me doing the things I should. Well done on having the required self control!

    I'm also looking forward to seeing your Azrael. Its a lovely sculpt, good luck with it!

  5. Michael said... March 19, 2010 at 5:56 PM

    You have to do what is best for you and your family my friend, and it seems that you are. So congratulations to you.

    I struggle with the same kinds of things, graduate school, family, hobbies, work. It adds up. but when I finally get the time to sit down and enjoy some painting, it really makes it more fun.

    keep fighting the good fight Fodder!